Effects of under pressure as a small only eating lunch a day teen, what happens to estrogen?

When I was 15 and older, I plain old did not want to have . It didn't hurt with a little hurt and did hurt with a lot of pain... My body became numb at one point to . It made me hot and uncomfortable when I didn't want to be. I didn't want to have . My am I handicapped I would say.. I had horrible posture from syndactyly and my hips would even go numb. It was hard for me to walk and run and play sports if I didn't practice, which would make it harder for me to walk. Anyhow. My estrogen level? My thankfully now like 7 damn years later are starting to make me feel like a woman, and not a nothing or a thing. My diet has changed. I corrected my feet and stand an inch and a half taller. was never refreshing, nice or anything I can get out of shaking my around my house house, getting wild by myself in my sheets or using a vibrator which feels a lot better. I'm talking about pain, like it was stabbing me, like my life was being oozed out under my belly to my uterus to the person. This guy I lost it to, he d me and told me to go to hell. I was traumatized after that. I never even learned how to take care of myself properly. I did not ever have a family to nurture me or what not only one to throw me around. I would wish every day that I would have never had .. Even the first time I did, I even moved away to try to make him stop what he was doing and it didn't work. ;( s?